Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Beware - A Blog about Struggles

My heart hurts today and I am greatly in need of the "therapy" that I tend to gain from blogging. There is very little I can tell you about the particular struggles going on right now. There are two specific situations that are going on that seem to have me at this spot right now. I hurt - plain and simple, I hurt. I am old enough and have been around church long enough that I "know" all the right things to say and the "best" Scriptures to quote. I thank God every day that I have HIS Word to turn to in times like this. The promises can be almost over-whelming at times and it seems that once you start reading them, you can't stop. I know that there are many hurts in the world and that EVERYONE has them. Even the people that always seem to have good attitudes and smile all the time and appear to be upbeat to everyone, they have struggles. Some handle struggles and difficulties in ways that I never could. Some cry, some laugh, some scream, some go into seclusion, some take medicine, some turn to drugs or to alcohol for comfort. Some sit in darkness, some surround themselves with people. Some seek counseling, some turn into hermits. Some seek after God more than ever, some turn their backs on Him completely. Whether we do it in a good way or a bad one, we deal with our struggles. My heart hurts and it is in times like this when I find myself drawn to music. I am not all that talented but I can play the piano a little and will find myself sitting down to play "just because". Today, I have some music playing on my computer here at work for I find that I am in desperate need of a touch from my Father. I simply do not know which way to turn today! I am clinging to the promises like "ALL things work together for good" and "I will NEVER leave thee nor forsake thee" and so many others.
Here is what I am hearing right now:

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His Word.
Just to rest upon His promise. Just to know thus saith the Lord.
Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him. How I've proved Him o'er and o'er.
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus. Oh for grace to trust Him more.

Yes tis sweet to trust in Jesus, just from sin and self to cease.
Just from Jesus simply taking, life and rest and joy and peace.
Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him. How I've proved Him o'er and o'er.
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus. Oh for grace to trust Him more.

I'm so glad I learned to trust Him. Precious Jesus Savior Friend.
And I know that Thou art with me. Will be with me till the end.
Jesus, Jesus how I trust Him. How I've proved Him o'er and o'er.
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus. Oh for grace to trust Him more.

The next song that came on speaks of the faithfulness of God. The verse that is speaking to me at this moment is:

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth.
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide.
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow.
Blessings all mine with ten thousand beside.

Great is Thy faithfulness. Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided. Great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!

While I simply do not have all the right words and this blog probably seems very disjointed, I can tell you that I have made myself feel better just by typing out the words to those two songs. God IS faithful and He WILL prove Himself to be EXACTLY what I need!


Anonymous said...

Dear Leah,
I feel your pain. I too have had my struggles this week, but God is faithful and He will be there with you. I will be praying for you.
Debbie Holden

Keith and Crystal said...

I'm sorry that you're hurting, Leah. Please know that I'm praying for you. God IS Faithful!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear, dear Leah:

I can sooo understand where you are coming from ! I love ya girl !! Give me a call this week, I am praying for you,

Tammy Potter

Vonnie said...

Amen and Amen!

Gene Davis said...


You are in our thoughts and prayers. I am often times reminded in difficult times of the psalms that states "Be still and know that I am God..."

Angie Davis said...

Oh Leah, praying for you! I love your honesty...